Monday, October 4, 2010

Back from the Shadowlands

The floods of Autumn continue, but they are nothing to the mental torrent of twisted, maniacal, chemically induced apparitions reminiscent of none but Poe. The physicians have done their work, tinkering with their potions, gleefully observing the torturous distortions, wrought by demons of glee, all in service to healing, to staying in the game, finding a new way, giving hope a chance to occur, giving science a shot at finding a breakthrough, giving sufferers in the battle for acuity a shred of hope, even if fleeting, even if nothing, there will be an outcome, and it might as well be positive, nothing ventured, nothing gleaned, all effort is good, all love is beneficent, passed on, in the branching forth of discovery, there is ALWAYS hope and love. Sometimes it takes a darkened, gloom-benighted sphere to rouse the angry call from the universe, the dampening of hope, the miscalculations, the possibility of despair, but through it all a guiding potentiality that refuses to dim. Teach us good lord, to serve as thou deservest; to give and not to count the cost; to fight and not to heed the wounds; to toil and not to seek for rest; to labor and not to ask for any reward, save that of knowing that we do thy will.


  1. Thank you so much for starting this blog. I just stumbled upon this in an attempt to understand and accept the feelings I have about my mom, who had early-onset Alzheimer's Disease. I often thought that as hard as it is to be a witness to this disease, it's unimaginable what my mom did--and you are--going through. Your words are very much appreciated. The flow and the eloquence of your words are poignant and profound. You have been struck with one of the world's most devastating diseases. I thank you for sharing from your own point of view what it's like in your world. You're a voice to those who can't express themselves, and a window for those who can't know what their loved ones are going through. You're a hero by creating and keeping up this blog. I hope it gives you hope and strength. A cure is around the corner, I'm sure. I hope all your days are filled with love, appreciation, happiness and peace.

    ~ With all my love
    A Stranger Who Really Does Care

  2. A good, good prayer indeed. I'm sure those at Eli Lilly would appreciate knowing their efforts, as disastrous as they were recently, are imputed as love.